Oh, this boy.
He has my heart.
He’s such a nice boy.
And sometimes he’s such a naughty boy, too.
But I understand his heart, his humor, his dreams. Even his frumpy moods.
And I love him for it all.
So when he’s sick and feverish and fresh out of the tub, I can’t help it.
I have to sit with him and rub his back, feeling the heat seep through his polyester pajama shirt.
I have to rub his spiky wet hair and feel his forehead (again) and ask him if he wants popsicles. Ginger ale? A mint?
And his limpid eyes just look at me, not caring about anything but finding relief. Finding sleep.
And I think about how vulnerable we are, us mothers.
I think about how a little bug can scare you, how a fever can remind you how good you have it- three healthy children to hold tight.
I love this job, this being a mother thing.
Of all the things I’ve done, all the things I dream of doing, this motherhood experience?
It’s my favorite job of all.
And? Probably the hardest.
Now get better, Connor-bear.
Get better soon. ‘Cuz I hate seeing you uncomfortable. ‘Cuz I hate seeing you sad. (Okay, and because the sickness in this house throughout this winter? Um, I kinda’ want it to stop now.)
See what I mean? This was your twin last week- (and the week before):
And this is her twin this week: No more, k, buddy?
K.
Get better.
‘Cuz I love you.
A whole bunch, little boy who has my heart.
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Colleen - Oh poor C Bear~ Tell him A. Coll says get better real quick. We love you!
Aunt Kara - ah man, poor Connor! Tell him Aunt Kara sends hugs & kisses
Katie - Get better quick buddy!
Cheryl - Connor, you are just the saddest looking guy! Hope you feel better soon! Love you, Grandma
Melinda - Sorry you are sick Connor, hope you feel better soon Love Aunt Minna
Donna - Oh, he looks so sad! It’s no fun when you’re not feeling good, but hope Connor is doing better today. This has nothing to do with your post, but I got my slippers yesterday and Jovita was right — they are soooo cute!! And I love them. And you’re right, they are nice and warm.
Sarah G - Connor, you still haven’t told me where I can get some of those lashes